As the journey begins..

As I begin this journey, I am full of anxiety, enthusiasm, excitement, all the things you feel when you know your life is changing for the better.  I grew up eating what was there and not caring how it effects your body.  I've always been overweight.  My normal weight should be "115" lbs..it'll never happen!  I'll look like a sick celebrity trying to shed weight for the role of America's Next Top Model!  YUCK!  Someone give me a cookie just thinking about it!  Anyway... I've made my goal to be 130.  I don't know if I'll ever achieve this goal, but I like to go to extremes and push myself.  It'll be awesome to fit into a string bikini this summer.

I decided to lose weight for myself.  To live a better, healthier life.  I want what every girl wants to get out of bed, look in the mirror and say to myself, "damn girl, you look so good!"  I want to have a smile when looking into the mirror, to be able to wear anything i wanted.  I was once 150lbs my senior year.  I fit into the size 11 jeans and medium size shirts.  It was awesome at that point..i had a little stomach pudge but nothing "tucking it under the pants when i sat down" couldn't fix.  lol.  Yes, that was me.  Though I want it better this time.  I have had two children in two years. I'm done..my body has changed.  I'm now a whoppin' 185lbs..well that's after the whole 10 lbs I have lost in the past month! Whoo Hoo for me!  I'm really trying at this point.  My mind is set.  

I have had bad habits like everyone else.  The extra butter, the bacon grease, grease period, coke, I used to smoke.  I've quit everything.  I am watching what I eat, I quit smoking a year ago.  I have no more bad habits, only good.  Watching my weight and staying healthy being a new one.  This is my New Year's Resolution, and I am going to do it.  So my journey begins...