Slowing down..

  It's May! The month of my birthday and Mother's Day! Mother's Day weekend just past and it was the best weekend I have had in a very long time.  I went shopping all weekend with my family. Just spending time with them and relaxing was awesome. We got to get away from Ft. Bragg a lot which was nice..I get sick of looking at this place. Everything looks the same in every direction.  

  As for my weightloss..things are slowing down a little. I'm not dieting hard like I was so I plateau so often. I'll reach a number and stay there for a week..go down one number..then go up one..it's annoying.  It's my own fault though. I stopped taking hydroxycutt and wanted to try Arson..not such a great idea!  Arson doesn't do anything for me.  Not as much of an energy boost as hydroxycutt gave me.  I didn't quite reach my goal, I made it to 166 then munched all weekend and went up to 168..but i'm going to try to work it back off this week.  all in all i'm still really happy.  I love going shopping now.  (i'm driving my hubby crazy) lol!  I'm probably moving this month and I know how I get when i'm on the road..I usually gain 10-15lbs on trips like that. So, my next goal is 162-163lbs by the next time I write and i'm going to try really hard this time.  I feel like I don't have that drive that I did..oh well..we'll see how it goes. Til then..

Feeling accomplished.

So..It's been 4 months since i started this weight loss goal and I'm finally feeling accomplished.  I don't feel the accomplishment of it being done..but that i am doing it.  I am fitting into my old clothes again, some are even too big.  It's an awesome feeling to know that i have lost soo much weight.  I look down and actually like what i see. I feel like the old Gayla. I have more energy and I feel pretty.  My friends got me going to the gym which i fell in love with!  I love it! I see the differences in all of us. We look soo good and you can tell when we leave the gym...we are proud of ourselves.  It's wonderful to have supporters like that.  well..i now weigh 169lbs.  My next mini-goal will be 165lbs.  Let's see how well April goes...

OHHH the parties!

Last time I wrote I said the next time I will be 175.  I am now 174!!  WHOO HOO! I actually reached it a long time ago...probably a little over a week ago.  I'm slowing down a lot.  The parties and drinking is starting to pick up around the neighborhood and who can say no to a Green Apple Smirnoff and some good food?!?!  It's sooo hard!  I'm really happy I've managed to keep the weight steady. If i see that I am gaining weight I just diet harder the next day and i lose it again. But the problem when I eat and drink all weekend and gain around 4lbs.  Lose it all by Tuesday, lose an additional pound Wed. and Thursday and then BAMM! there's Friday! The parties are starting!  There I go grabbing a beer.  One of my favorite things to do it sit around and mingle with my friends.  It's hard to not drink when everyone else is..so I have found..i need more control.  I've decided to slow down on the drinking and eating like that til i reach my mini goal of 160lbs.  I know now that i can maintain my weight which is an awesome thing.  But I'm not wanting to maintain the 175 right now.  I'm proud of myself though.  I'm happy with what i look like.  And I have the most supportive husband and friends and with them I know that I can do this.  Thanks you all! xoxo

a month after i started...

So....it's been a month since i started logging my weight and really cracking down on what i eat.  I weighed 190 lbs, i weighed in this morning at 181 lbs.!! I'm very excited!!  I'm really doing it.  I can do this.  Whenever I get discouraged I look at the pics i took of myself a few months back.  Around the time i had Logan which was Oct. 22, I always look at at a pic of me on Nov. 19.  It's such a relief and a joy to see that I'm slimming down.  I actually look good!  I can't wait to see how good i feel and look when and if i get down to 130 lbs.  I've never been down that far unless it was when i got sick with Crohn's disease..which i don't count.  But I'll never forget how cute that string bikini looked on me!!  I've not had that since.  But I'm still starting small and my goal at this moment is 160 lbs.  At this rate..i see me self getting there by April.  That would be awesome!  

These plateaus kill me though. I've always been told they would..but man!  i stayed at 185 FOREVER! The i got stuck at 183 for even longer. I was beginning to think i was failing..then i hit 181 yesterday.  Thank goodness!  I am waiting on our tax money to come in to buy a really nice digital scale..i figure when I lose all the weight and accomplish my goal..it'll ALL pay off!  But that's what I got for now..next time I write..I'm going to be 175 damn it!  Hopefully it is soon!

As the journey begins..

As I begin this journey, I am full of anxiety, enthusiasm, excitement, all the things you feel when you know your life is changing for the better.  I grew up eating what was there and not caring how it effects your body.  I've always been overweight.  My normal weight should be "115" lbs..it'll never happen!  I'll look like a sick celebrity trying to shed weight for the role of America's Next Top Model!  YUCK!  Someone give me a cookie just thinking about it!  Anyway... I've made my goal to be 130.  I don't know if I'll ever achieve this goal, but I like to go to extremes and push myself.  It'll be awesome to fit into a string bikini this summer.

I decided to lose weight for myself.  To live a better, healthier life.  I want what every girl wants to get out of bed, look in the mirror and say to myself, "damn girl, you look so good!"  I want to have a smile when looking into the mirror, to be able to wear anything i wanted.  I was once 150lbs my senior year.  I fit into the size 11 jeans and medium size shirts.  It was awesome at that point..i had a little stomach pudge but nothing "tucking it under the pants when i sat down" couldn't fix.  lol.  Yes, that was me.  Though I want it better this time.  I have had two children in two years. I'm done..my body has changed.  I'm now a whoppin' 185lbs..well that's after the whole 10 lbs I have lost in the past month! Whoo Hoo for me!  I'm really trying at this point.  My mind is set.  

I have had bad habits like everyone else.  The extra butter, the bacon grease, grease period, coke, I used to smoke.  I've quit everything.  I am watching what I eat, I quit smoking a year ago.  I have no more bad habits, only good.  Watching my weight and staying healthy being a new one.  This is my New Year's Resolution, and I am going to do it.  So my journey begins...